No choice

1435/1st November 2023

Breaks in the afternoon cloud provided another set of late Fall images on Wednesday.

The day that had started with snow.


When I take pictures that please me, I often hear my father’s voice tut-tutting:

“Out of focus, against the light, poor composition, etc etc etc.”

Here, I liked the dark foreground fading to gray, with bright colours in the distance.

It appeals to me.


On days like that, it’s hard to keep up with the sunbreaks.


Next, the sky turned dark gray, a stunning contrast for the hill now brightly illuminated.


Clouds decided to enter the competition


Sun had not withdrawn, peeping over my right shoulder, then left…


With each move, a new focus…


My little tree fully floodlit, while beyond the wall:


It is so easy to get lost in the experience.


My tiny house and the golden trees beyond


a dozen varieties of the same thing


Today, it’s a sort of therapy.


Penny is going to be leaving us very soon


Grant has cared for her day and night these last 6 years, so she is really his cat and he thinks it is time.

As I write, he has been digging a grave next to my Lucy who died just 4 weeks ago.

It’s so very hard for him.


But for Grant, Penny would not have had these last few years. I think she has been more loved than she ever was before and she has been happy.

Watching Penny and Grant together has been so sweet, but we’ve always known her time was short.

There is no way I know of to prepare, or to make it hurt less. Each time is worse than the last.

Some would say that if losing a companion animal is so hard, we should choose to not have them and many do choose not to go through the loss a second time.

My life without animals would have been empty, so there has never been a choice for me.

No sunbreaks today.

But they will come.

16 thoughts on “No choice

  1. Sending loving and peaceful prayers to you both…..๐Ÿ™
    May Penny have a peaceful passing.
    This time is always so difficult, but I can’t imagine my life without my precious kitties. ๐Ÿ˜ฝ
    Thank you for sharing your thoughts. โค๏ธ


  2. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Grant as you guide Penny through a peaceful passing. She has had a wonderful life with her loving family. It’s never easy, I know.

    1. Penny was already old when she was rescued 6 years ago after being abandoned with 2 other cats. We have tried to make up for it and Grant has been devoted to her.

  3. Always a difficult decision, but a necessary one when you know they will suffer if you do not take it. My love and thoughts are with you both, Carolyn and Grant, and of course hoping Penny’s remaining days are peaceful. ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿงก๐Ÿ˜ป

  4. So sorry to read this sad and painful news. I hope the beautiful memories in your heart can give you some comfort. My thoughts are with you.

  5. ๐Ÿ’” Dearest Penny. My heart breaks for you and Grant. I think she had a wonderful last part of her life. I know that every cat has such a special place in your heart … and letting go, is not easy.

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